It All Started with a Whisper: The Journey of Beyond Existing
I can remember the moment like it was yesterday. In December 2019, I participated in a New Year fast. During this fast, most evenings would consist of me sitting alone in my room praying and soaking in God's presence, but this night was different. The silence that filled the room each night was suddenly interrupted by a whisper in my spirit. I heard the most gentle voice say, "Be." At that moment I could hear God's voice so clearly. I paused, opened my eyes, and wondered what it meant. What was God telling me? I grabbed my journal and wrote the word “Be” down. I remember googling, "What does the word "Be" represent in the Bible?" I quickly started coming up with my interpretation of what God meant. I couldn't figure it out, and nothing I concluded made sense, but I knew God was trying to tell me something.
As the days went by, I couldn’t help but revisit that two-letter word written down in my journal. I can still remember the excitement I felt then; it was as if I were solving a mystery. I just wanted to figure out what that word meant. I’d spend my time doodling different ideas in my journal, but none of it felt right. My excitement quickly turned to frustration because I just couldn’t figure it out, and to be honest, I was tired of trying. With my hands up, completely exhausted, I went back to the place where I first heard God's voice a few days before. I positioned myself in the same way and opened my heart to hear from God. With an open heart and mind, I felt His perfect peace. It was as if He was telling me that I didn't have to figure it out on my own. I realized that this is what He desired all along. I believe God was showing me that it is like giving a child a gift, but they are so excited that they run off without asking how to use it. Of course, I was going to be frustrated. God wanted me to return to my source for understanding and guidance. So that is what I did. I went to my Father and asked for understanding. Within moments, God spoke again and said, "Beyond Existing." I was in awe; I had it all wrong. It wasn't the word "be" that God spoke to me it was an abbreviation. Nothing can compare to that moment. I was filled with excitement and joy, but I still didn't have any context on what it meant or what God wanted me to do. All I knew how to do was remain open to God's leading with a heart posture to hear His voice and direction.
Although God did not reveal everything to me at once, He has remained faithful. Through the constant seeking of His will, an open heart, and a mind to receive, He has downloaded His beautiful vision for BE into my spirit. You can learn more about BE here.
The most beautiful yet challenging part of this journey has been trusting God to lead me. Over the years, I've gone through phases of trying to convince God of how I think things should go and found myself sometimes getting distracted by what others are doing. However, God has continuously reminded me that this assignment has a divine purpose and that I shouldn't compare it to what I see in the world. He has always given me clarity when I feel lost and encourages me to follow His lead.
There is something so freeing about releasing your creativity to God and allowing Him to have His way. After all, He created us and planted every gift inside of us, so who better to walk us through how to use them?
God wants you to invite him to be your guide. He desires to be involved in every aspect of your journey of living out your God-given dreams and desires. I know firsthand how hard it is to understand what God is calling you to do. This journey is not meant to be walked alone; I believe that He is eagerly waiting for you to call on Him. If you desire to seek God's calling for your life, I want to encourage you to pray this prayer with an open heart and mind.
God,
I come to you with an open heart, eager to be led by you! I know that I was created with a purpose and a divine assignment to bring glory to your name. Today, I release my desires and dreams back to you and ask that you guide my way. I desire to be all that you've destined me to be and ask that you remind me to seek you first in all things. I pray for a heart to serve and bless others with my gifts. I will walk forward confidently in your promises of who you say I am and declare these truths over my life:
I am a new creation - 2 Corinthians 5:17
I am a child of God - John 1:12
I am chosen by God - Ephesians 1:4
I thank you, Lord, for who you created me to be and for the purpose you have in my life. I will listen expectantly for your small, still voice and instruction.
In Jesus name, Amen.
